Overcoming sex

I have struggled with homosexual temptation most of my life. By the grace of God I have always been celibate but the struggle for me has been intense. Sadly, the battle was also with my own denomination. Dear Jesus, I love you, overcoming sex I do not know what to do.

At that time I was involved in an intimate relationship with a woman, and I had to decide whether I would continue this relationship. Seventeen years ago, my life came to a crossroad. In my mind, I could either commit suicide or give God one more chance to change my life and bring it meaning. Prior to coming to this crossroad, I had struggled with my sexual identity as well as depression and anxiety.

My earliest recollections of being attracted to men is when I was six years old. I remember fantasizing about growing up to be a woman and marrying a man. Specific males came to my mind as I considered the kind of man I would marry. They were all muscular, handsome and confident. I struggled with same sex attraction for nearly twenty years. I am not certain at what point I was aware of the attraction.